jiye0nce:

black out, you don’t know this place that doesn’t exist
truthfully that sound was my silent scream
with my obstructed nose, lips, quietly closed eyes
i have the task of looking down at my unmoving body
what the fuck tell me what this is
i need an explanation now 
they’re babbling, they’re saying that they’ll light my life’s spark again
who are you to decide, my consciousness is fine
you can’t even imagine the fourth, so to say, the world of the mind*
this is crazy, whatever you say i’m still the god here
my existence can’t be explained or believed, listen clearly
i won’t tell you again, pay attention, what i need from you now is faith 
if you can’t believe me after hearing this, you’re just a bastard that lost everything
who are you over there, i can hear you say shit, that i have no hope
take this off so i can talk, what everyone is reluctant to do 
hose, respirator, thick and long needle, an urgent vital sign
do you get it now? my current state is a coma.
I, I, I, I’m never going down
I, I, I, I’m going up higher
I, I, I, I’m never going down
I, I, I, I’m going up higher
that place has no limit, have you endured it? that’s the reason i have no limits now
my detachment and resilience came after the day i executed my cancer-like self pity
hades, kiss my ass, i beat death and resurrected 
i’m a living legend, just look at me for the miracle that everyone searches for
bitch i’m here, can you see me now?
even though you try so hard to follow me there’s no use
bitch i’m me, non fiction. no limit.
i’m back from living in a coma, you need to wake up from your dream
no matter what it is, i throw a kick with no hesitation 
bitch i’m here
even though i refused to become a flower i’m an intellectual among flowers**
reality isn’t shit to me, i’m not dirtied by it 
and in this midst of this, you’re saturated in baseless confidence
that fragrance isn’t anything but fake, isn’t potent no matter how you steep it, no one becomes drunk on it 
on the other hand the synergy of my soul and beat fills your eyes and ears, an indirect experience
so at least imagine the place like that, 
a cold hotness inside a bright darkness,
a black star at a slow and fast standstill, here, this is coma.
I, I, I, I’m never going down
I, I, I, I’m going up higher
I, I, I, I’m never going down
I, I, I, I’m going up higher

* this was an interesting lyric. i first just heard it as 제사 (jae-sa), which is an annual occasion in korean culture when the family visits the grave of or commemorates the death of a family member with offerings. this made sense to me because it’s like cheetah is saying that this is unimaginable for her, because she’s not dead yet. she’s not ready to go. but the next line is “so to say, the world of the mind”, which made me think that she was talking about “jae-sa” as in “the fourth”, or the fourth dimension- outside the realm of our physical world. it’s an incredible play on words.

**the real word she used in this line was 화중군자 (hwa joong goon ja), and i took the liberty of translating in a way that would make sense in english. it’s actually a word derived from chinese if i’m correct- hwa (flower), joong (among), and goonja (one with great intelligence and virtue).